Carpe Diem

I was creating a table for my weekly task list when something hit me- If you look at the image above, what would you guess it to represent? 

This actually represents one year of our lives. The rows represent the twelve months in a year and the columns represent the days in each month. Now, if you are like me a year sure seems longer than what this table seems to represent; but when you look at it as a year in a glance, suddenly that year doesn’t seem quite as long.

As I sit and color in a square for each day that has passed so far in just this year alone, the realization is that there in absolutely no way that I am going to get that day back. When it’s gone, it’s gone forever. At the end of the year, we tear that grid off and we start all over.

I wonder, how many grids do I have left? With each year that passes I move on to another and another. For all I know, maybe I only have a few grids left; maybe I won’t even be here to complete this grid.

The realization for me is that I’ve been wasting many days on my grid. Many things that I want to do, people I want to talk to, be with, places to explore, memories to be made, and fun to have, I’m not doing. I’m going through the motions everyday thinking that those things will still be there next week or next month.

I guess maybe it’s time for me to adopt the YOLO way of life. It seems that my “F**K IT “list has become longer than my “Bucket List” and I’m not really happy with that. It’s time to find balance, seize today, and plan for tomorrow (just not obsessively.)